tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6555925323675899372.post1221394719770345784..comments2023-02-12T11:53:27.714-05:00Comments on Always Plus One: The worst thing is still happeningaliciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16262884781873779404noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6555925323675899372.post-60102106017565249342011-05-19T11:03:22.001-04:002011-05-19T11:03:22.001-04:00Mandy, I hear you. Yes, I could be so much happier...Mandy, I hear you. Yes, I could be so much happier if just Miles were here. And then there's just this one super important fact...it's simply a fact that my life is so much better because I had Miles; my heart is set on--though my world is painful now, absolutely--it's better because I am Miles' mommy. So then I feel that, though I could be happier, still my life now is blessed so much more because I had him for a short while. There it is--pain and joy side by side.aliciahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16262884781873779404noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6555925323675899372.post-41925114773978168612011-05-18T21:40:11.842-04:002011-05-18T21:40:11.842-04:00I remember writing one time that one of the many h...I remember writing one time that one of the many hard realizations about this loss is that I can now definitively say that my happiest times are behind me. At 35 years old, that is a terrible realization. And yet for the rest of my life, I will always know that I could be happier, because Hudson could be with us. And yet I know that there is still joy ahead. The hard part is learning how to live with the joy and the pain side by side. It's still so hard to imagine right now, as I'm sure it is for you, too, Alicia. Thinking about you and wishing so much that it were different, that you were still living in your former life with a healthy little boy in your arms.Mandy Hitchcockhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14365577216317740232noreply@blogger.com